Bane

2014 - 2026

My boy… my sidekick… my shadow..

There is now a hole in my heart the size of Texas. I knew losing you would be one of the hardest things I’d ever go through, and boy am I feeling it.

Flashback to 2014 when I went to the breeder to pick him out. All of his brothers were gone, just a few sisters running around playing… I couldn’t find bane right away because he was tucked under his mother hiding. He did not want to be away from her. His attachment to his mom kind of worried me about picking him, but after I finally got ahold of him I knew he was it. A few weeks later I came back to bring him home. Once again, he did not want to leave 😂 At the time it concerned me, but I very quickly learned his loyalty was to his mothers. First her, now me. Bane took that job very seriously by following me everywhere I went. And if I wasn’t in his sight, everyone would hear it with whines and howls.

The first few years of Banes life he was… the “bane” of my existence. He tore up my couch, carpets, kennel after kennel, jumped in the bathtub with me bc he couldn’t stand to be 6” from me, bit my can of OC10 and ran up the stairs with it completely covering my house in spray (we had to leave for a day to air it out) 😂 He licked a frog or ate a mushroom and had to be rushed to the emergency vet to pump him with charcoal to save his life. I had left for work while living with my buddy Josh and he saw me leave and jumped a privacy fence, ended up on Washington school grounds, luckily I got to him before animal control. Bane was a wild child, that absolutely hated when I wasn’t near.

When I met Sid, Bane hated him. So much 😂 we moved in together when I was pregnant with Scarlett and Bane and Sid would go rounds. If Sid was home with him while I was at work, Bane would stay outside, rain or snow, until I returned. Refused to come in for Sid. When Scarlett was born, Bane had a new person to follow and keep safe. He would watch her while she slept, make sure she was okay, and would let her play with the dog treat bin because he knew she would spill it eventually and him and Bailey would reap the reward.

Through the years Bane has watched me be young and dumb, fall in love, move to new homes, have 4 children, let Bailey go home, and meet Teddy and Tully. He’s seen it all. What a full life he’s had.

Two nights ago I laid down with him and told him it was almost time. He whimpered and put his paw on my hand and looked me in the eye. I think he was trying to tell me he’s gonna miss us. I kept reassuring him that it will be okay. I know his shadow will still be following me everywhere I go, even if I can’t see it.

We as a family are so thankful for his life with us and the protection, love and dedication he gave us all these years.

If I let him go too late, we’d both suffer. If I let him go early, only I suffer. I’ll take all the pain for his peace.

“choosing euthanasia is not giving up, it is stepping in so suffering does not get the final word”

Rest in heaven with Bailey my sweet boy.

And although no dog will ever be able to replace you, Teddy and Tully will take it from here.

I’ll see you on the other side, hoss 🩷